《向死亡微笑》To Smile at Death

在加护病房里,
我说妈,
妳怎么坐上了头等舱?
她给了我一个微笑。
当她转到了普通病房,
我又说,
妈,妳怎么降级到了经济舱?
她给了我,又一个微笑。

In the intense care unit,
I said to my Mother,
How do you come to the first class seat?
and she gave me a Smile.
When she moved the the normal ward,
I said to my Mother again,
Why are you downgraded to the economic class seat?
and, she gave me again, a Smile.

祈泉
2012年9月1日于新加坡

//Mom complained a chest pain, and was sent to the Singapore General Hospital at 3 am, on Tuesday, 28 Aug 2012. Going back to the hospital has recalled my sad memory about my father, and on the first day of visiting mom, I could not stop my tears from coming out of my eye. Everytime when I enter the ward, I put a big smile on my face, because I simply Love to see her smile, because she is the Angel in my life.//

16 Responses

  1. This poem is very touching and personal. I wish your mother a very speedy recovery. A little ‘get well soon’ wish for her🙂.

    • She is fine at the moment, but I want to smile to her each and every day, because I know death is coming soon, and at anytime. But I am happy, to be able to be with her, each and everyday now =).

      Thank you, my dear friend.
      kc

      • She must be very proud to have a son like you – that you wish to be at her side and make her happy. I pray for her.

      • I cannot take all the credits, 3 of my sisters are also by her side, and make her happy each and everyday too.

        You are too kind, dear Anarya.

        kc

      • Then I admire the fact that your siblings are also so close to their mother. What could be nicer for a family?🙂
        Best wishes to you all

      • Śukriyā=).

        kc

      • Hehe🙂. Thank you to you too🙂

  2. sorry that she was unwell. glad that she is better now. parents are priceless.

    • Hope that she will discharge soon from the hospital, should be in 1-2 days, but I now also have the preparation for everyday. I am so glad to be by her side, and I don’t have any regret to leave Amsterdam, and to have some difficulties in life, these are nothing compare to staying for a couple more days with my parents. If I have one million, and I can buy one more second just to be with her, I would not hesitate to buy one more second for her.

      Thank you for your kind words.
      kc

  3. You know you are aware of the magical moments ya can make when you scribble your thoughts. This was over-whelming and your wisdom and her patience was very visible – the very same mommy who brought you up! May she get well soon and enjoy the pink of her health!
    With love and blessings to both of you,
    -Naima.

    • Today when I visited her in the hospital, I have a feeling that me and my sisters are Angels that God sent to her, so that she will be happy for the very last few years of her life. I just naively wonder what is the next task for Angels like us🙂, after she has gone. Just a funny thought.

      She will be going home tomorrow, I hope. now seems OK, she now made some funny comment, just lie my father before he passes away. I am a little bit scare in fact for the funny comment she made. She look at the ceiling fan, and tell us, does that fan looks like a monkey?

      Thanks Naima for your blessing. May God bless you too for your good soul and a happy heart🙂.

      kc

      • Oh my goodness, that was a terrible joke. I would have sunk on my feet only if my mommy would have cracked such a joke at such a time! The feeling is so different, we aren’t able to prepare ourselves to let somebody go and when it comes to mothers, the feeling is even more intense!
        Thank you for the blessings Kee🙂
        -Naima.

      • My mom has done her best, and she saves my soul, after I have lost my father. Otherwise, I will lingered in the land of permanent regret. Everyday I say in my heart, mom, you have done excellently!

        Her time to go might have come soon, from her speech recently, but I still hope I can hold on her as long as possible, hopefully there will be at least a year to go =)! There is a funny science fiction movie, the alien always say this, never give up, never surrender!

        kc

      • Yeah, I understand what you mean! I am sure she has been a great support to you throughout to make you stand as firmly in your place as you are standing today!
        -Naima.

  4. 你真的很贴心,永远不放过任何机会让你挚爱的母亲笑。

    • 妈妈,
      死亡来了,
      我送你到这里,
      请妳把妳的眼睛当成一部相机,
      拍下最一个影相,
      我向妳道别的微笑。

      祈泉

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